hoping for his answer ~~ !

now im in bintulu,
so many memories,
that remind me of him,
they keep on playing in my head,
asking me not to forget them.
yaa...i will never forget them.
trust me!
cause those memories are too sweet to be forgotten.

minute by minute,
hour by hour,
day by day,
i keep on missing him.
he's working, i know (he told me before)
he's busy, i understand (that's what i am supposed to do, yup! my action is right)

because he's working, he becomes busy,
and because i am an understanding girl,
i often text him.
but every night,
i never stop wishing him good night,
hoping he will think that i am there,
always beside him
no matter how busy he is,
and how tired he is,
i will never stop my actions,
(why?.)so that he would feel more energetic,relief
knowing that i still remember him (don't worry my dear)

waiting is hurt,
but that is only the best way to know what answer will he give me.
(yaa, patient is important)

maybe some were asking what actually 'the answer this gen talking about'
yaa...i will telling the story in the next post..
from A to Z..

thinking of him drive me crazy.
cause i cannot do anything EXCEPT CRYING !
pity huh?.
definitely! i have to control myself in front of everyone.
so,the 1st thing i do is by looking at his love note (which was my background photo =')
then,by listening to this song:

"Kissing You Goodbye"

Cut yourself in conversation
Cut the line to make me feel alive
'Cause you know I'm not alive

And leave me with your complications
Take your life, you feel like taking mine
Meeting god we stand in line, not alone

Nowhere to go, I'm not leaving
Not going, I'm not kissing you goodbye
On my own, I'm nothing
Just bleeding, I'm not kissing you goodbye

Trust you'll take the right to leave me
Waiting under dark clouds for the rain
Praying lightning strikes a change
As history gets lost and
As I took that final breath I felt alive
Meeting god to stand in line, all alone

Nowhere to go, I'm not leaving
Not going, I'm not kissing you goodbye
On my own, I'm nothing
Just bleeding, I'm not kissing you goodbye

Don't let me go, don't say good bye
'Cause you know that I'm not alive
Don't let me go, don't say good bye
Don't let this love die
Don't let me go, don't say good bye
(Cut yourself in conversation
Cut the line to make me feel alive)
'Cause you know that I'm not alive
Don't let me go, don't say good bye
(And leave me with your complications
Take your life, you feel like taking mine)
Don't let this love die

Nowhere to go, I'm not leaving
Not going, I'm not kissing you goodbye
On my own, I'm nothing
Just bleeding, I'm not kissing you goodbye

I'm not kissing you goodbye
I'm not kissing you goodbye - the used

he told me that we will meet again,

and i trust in him.

cause that is what i am supposed to - trust, believe!

and from now on,

i am going to be a strong girl: inside and outside. =')

**to be continued